Tuesday was my son, JP’s birthday.
My prayers were answered and we all slept luxuriously until 6:30 am.
After his bottle, we took selfies at 7:08 am, the time he was born and originally first put in my arms.
I can’t believe two years have gone by.
And what a two years it has been!
It definitely reinforced that Upsets Are Indeed Access to expanded potential and more joy if we are willing to take them as invitations to change.
In reflection what happened to me, was truly for me, and changed the way I live for the better.
At the start of the pandemic in March 2020, as we were going into lockdown, I was reaching a new size in my pregnancy and grateful to have forced rest, as I moved all client sessions online.
Having the physical demands of my job curtailed dramatically and my schedule scaled back to meet my energy without having to orchestrate this myself was an unexpected gift from The Universe.
It provided the rest I needed but would have had a hard time taking for myself pre-pandemic.
At that moment, I realized, I could do less, work less, and be happy.
As someone who always prided myself on how much I got accomplished in a day, my attention turned from quantity to quality.
Without interaction from anyone else in my life, I savored the deep conversations I had with my clients online. And I realized how I am grounded and fed energetically and spiritually by these interactions and my job.
Doing less gave me more. ❤️
As JP was turning 6 months old, both he and my husband got Covid. Then Christmas brought post viral symptoms–terrifying seizures for my son.
While tough, what happened spurred me to learn my most important lesson to date…
Only I can give myself emotional security.
It is always my own intuition, my gut instincts, and my inner knowing I have to follow.
If I had only trusted myself, I would have avoided months of hardship while JP recovered.
I promised myself that I would never, ever ignore my own inner signals to please another.
This hardship = Priceless Lesson
Listening to internal cues is the best guidance for the external world.
In May of 2021, I had chest pain that took me to the emergency room that wound up being from a coughing fit from horrible allergies.
Listening to what my body was telling me got me re-committed to my own health and exercise, which had fallen by the wayside since I was pregnant.
The environmental allergens were analogous to the irritants of the last year that had been all consuming.
This was a sign I needed to reclaim both my breath (inspiration) and my movement.
Consistent bike rides, energy work, and workouts to my favorite inspiring soundtracks feed my body and soul.
There is no negotiating this. This self care is the gas that fills my tank.
I need to do things I love to be the person I love to be. ❤️
Doing less and listening to my feelings and body more has provided a whole new level of expansion, possibility, and joy.
This inquiry and this revelation came from reading an astrology post about Saturn Retrograde, which I am going to share with you next week so you, too can benefit from your own lessons over the last two years; stay tuned for that next week 😉
In the meantime, see if you can…
Do less, and listen to your heart more.
Is there anything your heart has been trying to show you?
This is an invitation from the Universe to claim it now. 💖
So much love,