I have told this story many times this week to help my clients open up to spirit and find faith right now.
For all the atheists and non-believers out there, I too, was like you for many years. I grew up Catholic and rejected that religion and God for a while because of the unwavering dogma and exclusion present in that religion’s rules.
I was still seeking, though. I tried meditation, Kabala, worked with a Shaman, and I was able to feel a fleeting connection to spirit. But it wasn’t until this experience that I solidified a connection I can feel viscerally and from which I can receive relief, calm, and inspiration when I need it in everyday life. I wanted to share this with you because of the value I’m feeling from this connection right now, in this time of uncertainty. So, I created an energy clearing routine set to Rise Up by Andra Day to help you release, fear and uncertainty, open you up to finding your own unique connection, and access faith.
All my friends were looking at me asking me if I was okay. I just shook my head and shrugged my shoulders as I tried to hold in my sobs so I wouldn’t be disruptive and call attention to myself. I was so embarrassed; all of a sudden, I was crying uncontrollably and had no idea why. Here I was in the middle of this sweet, spiritual gathering, literally ugly crying and unable to stop.
We had been singing Amazing Grace, and three quarters of the way through the song, I realized what was happening. I was being touched by pure love, true grace, and it was amazing, overwhelmingly amazing, almost too much to take. The best way I can describe it was feeling as if I had been understood in a vulnerable moment by someone who loved me, multiplied by 100,000. This Divine Love was so intense, it made me ball.
Through these tears, I found faith.
I had been drawn to visit this spiritual center in Brazil and my intention at the time was to heal any of my own blocks to love and marriage. Sitting at this cool prayer gathering which included an eclectic mix of songs, ranging from hymns to “Let It Be” by The Beatles and prayers and poems from many different religions, love found me. It just came in an unexpected way.
The next song we sang was one I had grown up hearing in Catholic School, The Saint Francis of Assisi Prayer. While I had rejected Catholicism and the prayers I learned as a child, I still felt comfort hearing this familiar song. And now that I had been struck by this Love, it had a new meaning to me. I hoped its message would stay with me forever.
“Oh Master grant that I may never seek,
So much to be consoled as to console,
To be understood as to understand
And to be loved as to love with all my soul.”
When I went to Brazil, I had been suffering from the new age dilemma of not feeling like I had enough of a lot of things–love, money, etc–and what I got in that moment, singing that song is–If this level of love and grace was available to me, I could never run out of having enough of anything. If I could re-connect to this love and grace, I would always have enough to give. If I could reconnect to even the smallest piece of this, I could easily be able to console, to understand and to love others rather than constantly feeling the need to seek it for myself.
When I got back from this spiritual journey, I wound up finding my life love, my husband Joe, just two months later. And, it was he who, ironically, got me back to connecting in with the Divine on a more regular basis by taking me to Saint Patrick’s Cathedral for Sunday mass. That church, like many places of prayer, has special energy, and I can sit there and feel Divine Love. I also feel it when I look at sunsets, do energy work with some of my clients, feel touched or inspired by a song or poem, and call in angels to help me with my day.
The exercises in this routine are based on Chinese Medicine, and have a specific focus to help you:
- Calm your fear and feel safe
- Access faith
- Connect to love and what matters
- Guide and protect you
Please rate your energy and stress levels before and after, and, if this helps you feel better, please share it with anyone you think may benefit: http://bit.ly/LRGotFaith
I am going to be discussing how Divine Energy can be used to help you open yourself up to receiving deeper levels of both love and abundance in my Love and Abundance Workshop tomorrow, Wednesday, April 15th at 1:00 pm EST. You can sign up here. 75% of the proceeds are going to NoKidHungry.org and to Project Mask for St. Joseph’s Hospital.
Much love and grace,