Have Faith

All my friends were looking at me asking me if I was OK. I just shook my head and shrugged my shoulders as I tried to hold in my sobs, so I wouldn’t be disruptive and call attention to myself. I was so embarrassed; all of a sudden I was crying uncontrollably and had no idea why. Here I was in the middle of this sweet, spiritual gathering, literally ugly crying and unable to stop.

We had been singing Amazing Grace, and three quarters of the way through the song, I realized what was happening. I was being touched by pure love, true grace, and it was amazing, overwhelmingly amazing, almost too much to take. The best way I can describe it was feeling as if I had been understood in a vulnerable moment by someone who loved me, multiplied by 100,000. This Divine Love was so intense, it made me ball.

Through these tears, I found faith. I had gone to Brazil to see the renowned healer, John of God, and my request was to find love. Sitting at this cool prayer gathering which included an eclectic mix of songs, ranging from hymns to “Let It Be” by The Beatles and prayers and poems from many different religions, love found me. It just came in an unexpected way.

The next song we sang was one I had grown up hearing in Catholic School, The Saint Francis of Assisi Prayer. While I had rejected Catholicism for all it’s unwavering dogma and lack of love, I still felt comfort hearing this familiar song. And now that I had been struck by this Love, it had a new meaning to me. I hoped it’s message would stay with me forever.

Oh Master grant that I may never seek,

So much to be consoled as to console,

To be understood as to understand

And to be loved as to love with all my soul.

Make me a channel of your peace.

Where there is hatred let me sow love…

When I went to Brazil, I had been suffering from the new age dilemma of not feeling like I had enough of a lot of things–love, money, etc–and what I got in that moment, singing that song is–

If this level of love and grace was available to me, I could never run out of having enough of anything. If I could re-connect to this love and grace, I would always have enough to give. If I could reconnect to even the smallest piece of this, I could easily be able to console, to understand and to love others rather than constantly feeling the need to seek it for myself.

When I got back from this spiritual journey, I wound up finding my life love, my husband Joe, just two months later. And, it was he who, ironically, got me back to connecting in with the Divine on a more regular basis by taking me to Saint Patrick’s Cathedral for Sunday mass. That church, like many places of prayer, has special energy, and I can sit there and feel Divine Love. I also feel it when I look at sunsets, do energy work with some of my clients, feel touched or inspired by a song or poem, and call in angels to help me with my day.

Divine Love can be found in many places. You actually have an innate connection to it via your chakras, which you can experience in the meditation below. Tapping into this Love on a daily basis is how you can have faith.

Faith as defined by “complete trust or confidence in someone or something.” (Oxford Dictionaries)

Love is one of the few things in which I can trust, as it always makes me feel better, and it expands itself. Love begets love. Do something out of love and it often increases the feeling of love! Other emotions work the same way, do something out of anger, and you can feel more angry.

You always have the choice to choose love.

Some of the strongest, most inspiring people in history have used love to help them persevere in horrible circumstances. What gives some people the ability to love where others fail? Faith.

In an interview with a Nazi prison camp survivor, the survivor said:

“I had to decide … whether to let myself hate the soldiers who had done this … I had seen, too often, what hate could do to people’s minds and bodies. Hate had just killed the six people who mattered most to me in the world. I decided then that I would spend the rest of my life, whether it was a few days or many years, loving every person I came into contact with.”

As the days become shorter and there is less light, can you bring in more love and faith? As tensions are running high in the current political climate, can you look for the Love in others and in yourself?

Finding it where it lives inside you can help you have faith in the power of the human spirit.

Despite the crazy times in which we are living, “There is much love for you here.” – Abraham Hicks

So much love,